Monday, January 31, 2005

Callings and dreams...

Hey all...I am taking in my comp for basic repares, and with the snow and all...I wont be bikeing to the library this week.
Going to use this time for really intince studying the Word. I trust to have great stuff to post when I come back.... ^_^ .   See you then!

Oh, a few days back I said I needed new dreams, but what I really mean is I need a new approach to the dreams.   A new way of heading into it...I still want to do outreach to at-risk youth/young adults...I still want to do bardic ministry... I still want to help reach the Irish and the Navajo...but I need to find out how GOD is asking me to do it...I know this week will be good for that.   In some ways I think He is backing me up so that I can work my callings around who ever I am to marry's callings.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Needing new dreams...

I am sorry first of all...to all of you...this will be a depressing post.   IF you are low right now...just read another day.   I dont want to make anyone more depressed...but this is stuff I have to get out.

As I have already stated, love and I are not close friends.   Yet before anyone gets the wrong ideas...I am still a helpless romantic...the princess who longs to have her prince come ridding in and rescue her...and tend to her ailing health.  For a time I have known that.   That time has parted...may haps I will see it again.

Secondly, my health has waned...tis not as bad as this summer, true.   But winter is normally my best time.  When I have stronger energy and can come closer to tackling the world.   I had that...for a month and a half after the weather cooled, but now tis back to maybe one good day a week.   At least my back is not "killing" me with pain...I am just well...sore all over...for no good reason.

Thirdly, as many of you know...my dream in life was to start up safe houses and clubs for the youth and to live in one of the safe houses.   Realitly has set in.   My health will never permit me to live in a safe house or run a club.   Oversee the ministry that sponsores those who do?  Yes, run them myself no.   I just dont have the energy for that.   And that hurts, for 3 years I have longed for this...and to realize that is like a knife to the heart.

Fourthly,  I am 1000 miles away from most of my friend, and those I am close to, I still hardly get to see. 

Fifthly, I am jobless, and not for lack of trying.   I have been for 10 months, and still no luck.   It does not help any that I can only work part time, when I do get a job...due to my health.

Yeah...I am fighting with depression.   And I need some new dreams....blast it all.  LOL.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Struggles

I want to make something clear... Despite what it may seem...Faith and Trust are points I strugle with...Simple life and abandoning the things of this world....have been weak points for me.   Does this mean I give up?   NO!!!!   
First of all,   I know Christ is all I have to hold on to.   Iosa Criosta i mi Ri! 
    
Secondly,  without Him...I have nothing left to HOPE for.   All my hopes are resting in Him.   My life is hard and full of sorrow, but His Promises and His Word....is the Hope that pulls me through.   

Thirdly, what do I have to lose?  LOL.   He gave me life.   He can take it away.   He can bless the deeds of my hands.   Tis better to serve Him.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

22 Years...

I am 22 today.    

 *dances around happy*

Pizza, Return of the King, calling friends, and just general relaxing for a day...


Presents anyone?

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Plans for my 22nd year....

get my drivers license before April when I have to renew my permit, get a good job, pay off my parents, get a car... start saving up to move
out on my own
as well.... finish getting my clothing an' possession down to a "simple" moveable level...while retaining my celtic/medieval style
spiritual this years focuses are learning more about prayer and trust in God
For fun...it is paint the pink walls of my room GRAY! LOL!!!  If I have to be stuck here might as well enjoy it...

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Sliver Light

Acrossed the moon lit plain
a figer stands alone.
The wind sings to her it haunting songs,
as the stars shimmer through her tears.
Silver light to calm her fears,
Whisper of the dawn to give her hope.
Lone figer no more alone,
another to stand beside.
Hand and hand, hearts so dear.
Love to keep them forever near.
My prayer for this year is this...besides growing closer to God... that this poem would be fulfilled.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Who I am?

From the mists of the moors and the winds of the east
From the peat of the bogs and the cliff of Morhar
From the foam of the sea and the fog of the glen
I am she who time forgot

I am she who the wind speaks to
I am the myrrh of sorrow
I am the mint of joy
I am she who see beyond
I am she who sees with in

I am a creature of pain
I am creature of joy
I am a being of death
I am a being of life
I am she who time forgot

I am "Morria"...

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Saturday, January 1, 2005

New Year Beginning...

My year is starting strange...I don't really have a clue where God is guiding me.   I think this is Him teaching me to wait on Him....and to listen to others so that I might help them.  I don't know...but this year should be good.... I think?

I just want to draw deep into the things of God....and get to know him better.  I long to know Him more and grow in prayer and all.   All the project and stuff I could do...mean little compared with knowing Him more...and sharing that with others.

~ Traveller Gal, out!